I’m rapidly approaching the end of my third decade on this ball of rock, and I’ve already begun the inevitable (and occasionally tedious) review of what’s gone before.
Thirty years have passed and I’m fighting the urge to say “Have I actually acheived anything?” and “Was it all a huge waste of my time?” and “Was any of this worth it?”, but then that would be the depression that always lurks around by birthday talking.
In reality some things have worked out quite well (and others not so well, but such is life).
On one hand I’m a university dropout with a string of dead-end jobs behind me, a novel which is going nowhere (and has been for most of my life) and a wife with whom I do nothing but bicker and fight.
On the other hand I have a steady job which I don’t hate and pays reasonably well, I have some of the best friends that money can buy (don’t worry Edgy, this month’s cheque is in the post), I have an imagination that throws ideas out faster than I can get them on paper, I have a really rather pleasing comic collection (which is getting more out of control all the time) and I’m married to a beautiful woman who I’ve been deeply in love with for years.
So when it all balances up, I’m more than happy with the way things have turned out.
Would I have done things differently?
Of course. But just small things. Mistakes that it would have been better not to make, but were fun making at the time…
So with a third of my life coming to an end (I have every intention to make it to 90, where I can be crotchety and unpleasant and stinking of pee) I’m looking forward to whatever happens next.
But with at least 60 years left, do I have enough time to fit everything in?
BigAl